How often have we felt that our lives are complete?

People always feel like theres something more they want. People who are attached want more time, either for each other, or in sad cases, away from each other. People who are Not attached, want to get attached, thinking that its the panacea to all emotional ailments. How wrong can they be.

I'm always overwhelmed, whenever i'm on the brink of losing someone, something, or some emotions in my life, for good. Don't misunderstand me, its not juz like, losing a closed one. It can be as simple as, losing the joy you used to share with anyone, say a friend. The fear i always encounter, is that no matter what, i'll never be able to replicate the same emotions...

I'm like a historian, not wanting to miss out the details of anything happening around me.

Of coz, if it comes to more severe matters, like really losing a loved one, like your girlfriend/boyfriend, juz multiply the sadness by, say 10. Coz most of the time, it means the persons gonna b out of my life for good, no matter what any1 can promise. Its nobody's fault i guess.. but its real hard 2 like, really keep the person in your life. Its so easy, if its the case that you are the one who lost your feelings/understand that it impossible for u 2 carry on.. But how about the other party, who still remembers, cherishes and wants to honor his/her promises of yesteryears...

What is really true, unconditional love?

I believe that it is the willingness to do anything, absolutely anything, for the other party.
(Not obligation)
And that includes letting the person go, out of ur life. Yes its definitely painful. But why persist if the love you have for others isent mutual? Theres no such thing as fairness; thats a fallacy. theres no real and tangible way 2 measure love; theres no loveometer.

Everyone of us are selfish by nature. Thats a fact. The issue is the extent.

When we prefer to do something with some1 else, thats being selfish. thats a recognition of one's preferences, despite others.
When we choose to do something which furthers our own cause, be it as noble as education, or lowly as theft, thats selfishness.
When we are in a relationship, and there are other things we value more than the person, thats selfish.
But no one said selfishness is bad. its juz... selfish.

When you really feel the immense pain of emptiness, I know you'll agree with me (*winks at MH).

(Haha, this post is purely random. So guys, dun tink so much abt it yah? its juz stuff i may wanna use for our next musical)

>>marv